inmyinsanity

I stare off into this oblivion and for a moment I forget where I am I forget who I am I am anything but me and I’m loving every minute of it as my eyes blur together these distances from the strain this situation I’ve dubbed as life that makes me ill numb and unfulfilled filled with florescent lights and neutral colors the less I blink means the less I see your face how I always see your face to keep this song repeating holds me in this feeling next comes new life, change, and death of everything I knew the colors dance and spin in dizzying confusion my heart pounds with excitement but it’s fear that holds me perfect

you still breathe me in while i take your breath away explain it to me if you can for i never will understand clutching so hard at a life only seen when closing our eyes to this dream in such great fear these miracles we endure so we beg them to stop all you need is to hold on that much tighter or let go how simple, this torture with a push and a pull a roller-coaster we all must ride for the spin, the sickness, and the grin to go deaf, would mean to hear your voice to fall blind, there would only be your face there is no mercy for these wants and desires us sinners and liars standing in this line the closer we get the further i

It will be okay And I smiled to myself for the first time In such a long time Because we are all on our own Hair blowing in the warm breeze Looking out into the evening sky I think we know this deep down inside But it's something we try to mask with things,  With people Or we drowned it out with substance ... Or make believe. And that's okay If that's for you ... But it's not for me That uncertainty of life I would never give it up Soothsayers are missing out on an eternity Because it leads you to the greatest places And into the arms of the loveliest people For I will love all i can Even on the darkest of my days And through the crac

I’m not about the past But it still chases me like wolves….. And I run….. It’s my best defense Against these ghosts This mob with their torches Their fangs, their hate…… And I’m always your number one……. But I never believed it I knew it from the very beginning It was just the hope That kept me alive and fighting…….. It was just the lies That held me under and kept me dying……. The seasons may change But this song stays on repeat All to keep my heart alive and fighting Pumping again for just another 24….. To find me that reason…. I&

it keeps us scared it keeps us slaves materialistic this need outlined in metaphors we only seek for our amusement just a short time for the fill and then we tire swiftly yet we watch our accounts with eagle eyes with gripped fists and drooling lips of greed and of the scour but it burns holes in my stomach of the upset from the worry these illusions that keep us bound and in this place but yet it’s all so real as our lives pass us by we watch it in movies wasting away with our eyes burning at the flicker droning away at the voiceless the meaningless and all that we doubt yet we do nothing because it keeps us scared it keeps us

i figured i'd grab a pen and a pad and write something in my life i never thought i'd have one where the sky sings in blue and the clouds that were rolling through disappeared back into the nightmare one i never had about you for today i am renewed and for tomorrow yet still, i haven't a clue and thats just fine as heaven and hell now know that i have you and i am done playing soldier in this make up game for two where castles are beautiful but held at bay by disaster moated away, trapped only to decay away from it all where it used to say "maybe i will another day" and for once i held a smile in the pals of my hands and a kiss felt p

falling from the inside is just something i've learned how to do gritted my teeth and pushed on through where i've stood tall above the thrashing i've crumbled under the weight throughout these years of the world colliding on me every road and every struggle for every test, this righteous torment the man that it's made me was it all heading to a breaking point? where i could breathe a sigh of relief i could just be, in a world at peace here i sit listening to the music bobbing my head to the hope of a better tomorrow of a wish for a brighter today and the ability for me to right all my wrongs to fix all that i've broke and just one more ch

Sometimes we sleep to dream Sometimes we sleep for the darkness The silences we can hear The blackness where nothing exists But your soul to bare For to feel is a gift not always granted And to love eternal Is not meant to be found by all Where a thing called time is nonexistent Yet still it helps us know where we’ve been And who we’ve become What we’ve accomplished And what most still be done Sometimes our course is meant for action Other times it’s meant for none We thrive in that single continuous moment called life But never forever that we are all one

even when i run to the ends of the earth to escape or climb and fight my way to the top of the highest mountain or those times when i fall and crawl to the deepest depths of the hole i've dug at last, where i try and hide in safety and warmth under the covers for comfort where no one could find me because i've shut them all out and when i finally open my eyes... there you are staring right back at me ...and you smile